I’m going to respond to this sincerely, mostly because in the process of answering it, I am also addressing the topic of the thread.
bustylady wrote:Here comes another one, these guys never listens... I told both of them not to bother me, the same day. Who are these people to judge me..?
Who are you to tell anyone what they can and cannot do? You antagonize people for very little reason. You take everything that is said to you here personally, yet you tell people to shut up constantly and are quick to dismiss anyone who disagrees with you in any way. That is the hallmark of a narcissistic personality. You fear being judged by others, but the truth you refuse to acknowledge is that nobody is judging you because nobody cares. You’re just not that important. (For that matter, nobody is. We’re all irrelevant to the world at large.)
My point in asking if you have ever been tested for schizophrenia was to highlight that your whole thing about possessing secret knowledge of the impending collapse of civilization, granted to you by God, is exactly something a schizophrenic would say. You’ve voiced opinions in other threads about how nobody was there to help you and the world owes you something because something bad (you won’t say what it was) happened to you. Man, let me tell you, bad shit happens to everyone. Your life may be worse than mine, but that’s the luck of the draw. The world doesn’t owe you a goddamn thing. It’s neither right nor wrong, but you cannot control your circumstances. You can only be the version of yourself that you wish to be within those circumstances. You need to drop this whole victim mentality and take charge of your own self-improvement. Nobody will do it for you. Even those who love you cannot do the work for you. It
must come from you or else it lacks meaning.
I am not saying that are valueless at all, though you seem to think that I am. This isn’t hatred. You are just as valuable as anyone else, but you’re choosing a path that will fulfill your own fears about yourself, inevitably. Anyway, you’re on a porn forum decrying the moral corruption of the world, yet you are participating in that corruption by even being here. That doesn’t make a whole lot of sense, now does it? (I’m not saying porn is corrupt, but that is how you have framed it. I’m just highlighting that you’re not being consistent.)
And anyway, you’re coming after my ego, insulting me etc., and that’s fine, turnabout’s fair play, but your reaction demonstrates that you are the one with the more fragile ego here. If you react like this to being teased on an Internet forum, then the problem rests inward. I never said I was better than anyone here, least of all you. There is no judgment. I am in no position to judge you, and I am certainly not perfect myself or immune to the seductive temptations of my own ego. Even if I were judging you, I don’t know everything about you. It would be irrelevant. I simply see someone who has a self-destructive outlook on life and I am pointing out the ridiculousness of it.
Life is a state of being. Nothing is constant. Nothing is guaranteed. My standing could change at any time and I could find myself in better or worse circumstances overnight. However you view me, whether as an aspiring porn director with passion and potential or a hopeless deluded wannabe who cannot even hold a camera properly, it does not affect me because it does not change who I am in my own mind. Ultimately, that is also a state of being. We are who we choose to be. Our peers can only affect that choice if we allow them. I was like this before I did porn and my choice to get into the industry had no effect on my sense of worth or importance. I act like I’m something, not because I’ve done anything in particular, but because I
am something. I don’t do anything in life for accolades because that’s no way to live. They may be pleasant to hear, but they have no true significance. If you have no pride in your own creations, or did not at least enrich yourself from them (whether through profit or education), then they were not worth creating. It doesn’t matter what other people think. I do things that either serve my basic needs or fulfill my personal interests. In any case, I believe that consciousness itself (or if you prefer, the ‘soul’) is a fractal entity; there is fundamentally no difference between any of us, and in fact, we are all emanations of the same infinite being. Much like time, the self does not truly exist and is only an illusion. The universe is a singular entity experiencing itself recursively through an infinite number of fractal vessels all at the same time, iterating upon and interacting with itself eternally for all of time.
Look. This is an Internet forum for a porn company. Get some perspective. Take a break. Nothing that happens here should be affecting you this way, and if it does, then you should look inward and ask yourself why that is the case instead of projecting your ego outward onto everything around you.
I will grant stop talking to you from this point forward, but only because I have said all there is to say, not because you ordered me to do it.