Life is a fuck-up

[netzerkaiser]

Sorry guys, had to delete, too personal.

Basically a story of getting laid & not knowing what to do next...

But you need to count your Blessings. I've spent 3/4 of each year for past 8 years on West Coast of Scotland, which is amazing in its beauty. But homestead in Ireland (where I met her) is nearly finished & renovated. Just wanna go home, for good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vM_7msjCtYw

[Jocke]

Congratulations!

[ZiziMinuscule2]

Powodzenia.

[JayJams]

...and knowing is half the battle!

[Starrio]

I recommend taking a good piss after sex, it cleans the system. I also like to shower to feel refreshed, and then a nap goes well with that. However in my experience some girls do get hungry afterwards, at least the ones that don't pass out immediately after a heavy orgasm. So ordering in or going out to grab something quick is sometimes necessary. And it is usually junk food what they want for some reason, specially the young ones.

[netzerkaiser]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RRMZQsK ... GA&index=2

[netzerkaiser]

Powodzenia.

Please send your email address to DAP addict, Brother - he'll pass to me. My house will be finished by end of summer. Would love to show you around my beautiful little country. I mean it.

[davebowman]

I recommend taking a good piss after sex

Not during?

[netzerkaiser]

Sorry guys, had to delete, too personal.

Basically a story of getting laid & not knowing what to do next...

But you need to count your Blessings. I've spent 3/4 of each year for past 8 years on West Coast of Scotland, which is amazing in its beauty. But homestead in Ireland (where I met her) is nearly finished & renovated. Just wanna go home, for good.

I've 100 year old house, been in family since day 1, stripped paper & paint, all these glorious wainscotting panels now polished, just looking so forward to it...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vM_7msjCtYw

[ZiziMinuscule2]

Powodzenia.

Please send your email address to DAP addict, Brother - he'll pass to me. My house will be finished by end of summer. Would love to show you around my beautiful little country. I mean it.

I wrote to DAPAddict to ask him about Nika Star as he had intervened into "my" topic about Nika. No answer. No problem. I understand he can have nothing to share with me or have no time to waste. But I'm not sure if he would bother to pass You my adress.

However, feel free to write me at spirydionknurek@gmail.com

Take care.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

BTW, I've never had a girlfriend and I don't want anymore. I just wank about 10 times a day and I pass hours and hours watching porn. It starts to impact my work and "relationships" (I mean family and friends, no serious "relationship").

I've given up psychiatric medication as it didn't work for me. The doctors made serious efforts to help me, but simply didn't work. I don't care anymore. Just want to sleep and wank. Someone must take care of my cats and my mother, but sometimes I think it would be better to diseappear.

After all, it's a true crime to want to have a relationship and to share your life with a woman with whom you don't need to feel ashamed of your body and mind, right ? A fucking crime. A sin.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

Not going to give up porn. The only valuable ingredient of this fucking life.

[sexaddict251]

Not going to give up porn. The only valuable ingredient of this fucking life.

These people won't understand you brother, but I do... I'm starting a business in my country, one day Ill take everything from them, for us... If I survive I'll make a porn studio and will invite you, those girls love only Money, still I will try my best, everyone deserves love... Don't loose hope brother, it won't take long....

[Starrio]

I recommend taking a good piss after sex

Not during?

Funny, I actually would but that's a hard sell for many girls, and hard to do as well. I once tried to piss inside a girl and I end up embarrassing myself for shitting the bed instead. Luckily I was able to act quickly in removing the sheets, and taking a shower. Plus it helped that she acted like nothing happened, but it was low moment for sure.

[Starrio]

BTW, I've never had a girlfriend and I don't want anymore. I just wank about 10 times a day and I pass hours and hours watching porn. It starts to impact my work and "relationships" (I mean family and friends, no serious "relationship").

I've given up psychiatric medication as it didn't work for me. The doctors made serious efforts to help me, but simply didn't work. I don't care anymore. Just want to sleep and wank. Someone must take care of my cats and my mother, but sometimes I think it would be better to diseappear.

After all, it's a true crime to want to have a relationship and to share your life with a woman with whom you don't need to feel ashamed of your body and mind, right ? A fucking crime. A sin.

It sounds like you just need to build some confidence and let go of the past, I recommend doing meditation. I have a close friend that had problems with drug abuse, and meditation helped him get rid of those things he identified with that worked against him and kept him as an addict. Those insecurity thoughts are not different. He used to sleep on the streets, and now he owns his own house with a large home theater, a swimming pool, and an outdoors jacuzzi. It is basically a battle between your conscious mind and your subconscious, so you need to train your mind with meditation so it doesn't take over your life and soo you can regain control. It takes time, but it is worth it. Sign up for vipassana at least, do one of those 10 days retreats, and slowly try to regain control. Everything in life is perspective, and sometimes it is hard to choose a different one, but ultimately that's all it takes.

[netzerkaiser]

Powodzenia.

Please send your email address to DAP addict, Brother - he'll pass to me. My house will be finished by end of summer. Would love to show you around my beautiful little country. I mean it.

I wrote to DAPAddict to ask him about Nika Star as he had intervened into "my" topic about Nika. No answer. No problem. I understand he can have nothing to share with me or have no time to waste. But I'm not sure if he would bother to pass You my adress.

However, feel free to write me at spirydionknurek@gmail.com

Take care.

Thanks! I love honest people & you are so honest. I'll mail you when I've RnR next. I'll bet something got lost in the mail with DAPAddict because he's a rally sincere guy. Take care also.

[netzerkaiser]

BTW, I've never had a girlfriend and I don't want anymore. I just wank about 10 times a day and I pass hours and hours watching porn. It starts to impact my work and "relationships" (I mean family and friends, no serious "relationship").

I've given up psychiatric medication as it didn't work for me. The doctors made serious efforts to help me, but simply didn't work. I don't care anymore. Just want to sleep and wank. Someone must take care of my cats and my mother, but sometimes I think it would be better to diseappear.

After all, it's a true crime to want to have a relationship and to share your life with a woman with whom you don't need to feel ashamed of your body and mind, right ? A fucking crime. A sin.

A holiday might do you good! Be patient. I'll be in touch surely.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

BTW, I've never had a girlfriend and I don't want anymore. I just wank about 10 times a day and I pass hours and hours watching porn. It starts to impact my work and "relationships" (I mean family and friends, no serious "relationship").

I've given up psychiatric medication as it didn't work for me. The doctors made serious efforts to help me, but simply didn't work. I don't care anymore. Just want to sleep and wank. Someone must take care of my cats and my mother, but sometimes I think it would be better to diseappear.

After all, it's a true crime to want to have a relationship and to share your life with a woman with whom you don't need to feel ashamed of your body and mind, right ? A fucking crime. A sin.

It sounds like you just need to build some confidence and let go of the past, I recommend doing meditation. I have a close friend that had problems with drug abuse, and meditation helped him get rid of those things he identified with that worked against him and kept him as an addict. Those insecurity thoughts are not different. He used to sleep on the streets, and now he owns his own house with a large home theater, a swimming pool, and an outdoors jacuzzi. It is basically a battle between your conscious mind and your subconscious, so you need to train your mind with meditation so it doesn't take over your life and soo you can regain control. It takes time, but it is worth it. Sign up for vipassana at least, do one of those 10 days retreats, and slowly try to regain control. Everything in life is perspective, and sometimes it is hard to choose a different one, but ultimately that's all it takes.

Hello, Starrio. Please, be informed I do appreciate a lot Your input. Heartwarming yet substantive and factual. I will keep Your words in mind for sure even if I feel I got too powerless to act. That being said, I know this kind of capitulative attitude is, in fact, a kind of laziness.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

BTW, I've never had a girlfriend and I don't want anymore. I just wank about 10 times a day and I pass hours and hours watching porn. It starts to impact my work and "relationships" (I mean family and friends, no serious "relationship").

I've given up psychiatric medication as it didn't work for me. The doctors made serious efforts to help me, but simply didn't work. I don't care anymore. Just want to sleep and wank. Someone must take care of my cats and my mother, but sometimes I think it would be better to diseappear.

After all, it's a true crime to want to have a relationship and to share your life with a woman with whom you don't need to feel ashamed of your body and mind, right ? A fucking crime. A sin.

A holiday might do you good! Be patient. I'll be in touch surely.

Defaitism and capitulative attitude are inherntly encoded into my DNA. And, to be honest, I don't think I should change it. There are some reasons that can not be explained in public that make my "suffering" useful for others. And I want be useful for these female individuals. Call me a #simp if You You want. I don't feel like I need to be proud of it. #SimpArmy? I don't care.

For me, true heroes are nor big winners, nor heroic losers, but rather people like him: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alois_Eli%C3%A1%C5%A1

Pravda vítězí. And I know that it's me who is right and that the truth is on my side. These females are guitless and they need their whiteknight. Or, perhaps, whitepage. Já zůstanu věrný.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

That being said, Netzer, be aware I appreciate a lot every of Your messages (not only those adressed to me!).

[netzerkaiser]

That being said, Netzer, be aware I appreciate a lot every of Your messages (not only those adressed to me!).

And I you. Please, how did you learn French, Zizi? I have always struggled with French. I mean I can read it... but novels etc seldom have as much dialogue as I'd like, & they often heavily rely on 'literate tenses'... like the past historic etc.

Maybe you having learned English helped, particularly in that you weren't readily deceived by the seemingly common alphabet? You knew not to take for granted for example, how the letter 'w' should sound?

Maybe I need go back to absolute base 1 & focus on pronunciation. In my head 'prennant' is still pronounced PRENNANT instead of 'prenn'...

Any resources you recommend?

[netzerkaiser]

BTW, I've never had a girlfriend and I don't want anymore. I just wank about 10 times a day and I pass hours and hours watching porn. It starts to impact my work and "relationships" (I mean family and friends, no serious "relationship").

I've given up psychiatric medication as it didn't work for me. The doctors made serious efforts to help me, but simply didn't work. I don't care anymore. Just want to sleep and wank. Someone must take care of my cats and my mother, but sometimes I think it would be better to diseappear.

After all, it's a true crime to want to have a relationship and to share your life with a woman with whom you don't need to feel ashamed of your body and mind, right ? A fucking crime. A sin.

It sounds like you just need to build some confidence and let go of the past, I recommend doing meditation. I have a close friend that had problems with drug abuse, and meditation helped him get rid of those things he identified with that worked against him and kept him as an addict. Those insecurity thoughts are not different. He used to sleep on the streets, and now he owns his own house with a large home theater, a swimming pool, and an outdoors jacuzzi. It is basically a battle between your conscious mind and your subconscious, so you need to train your mind with meditation so it doesn't take over your life and soo you can regain control. It takes time, but it is worth it. Sign up for vipassana at least, do one of those 10 days retreats, and slowly try to regain control. Everything in life is perspective, and sometimes it is hard to choose a different one, but ultimately that's all it takes.

Hello, Starrio. Please, be informed I do appreciate a lot Your input. Heartwarming yet substantive and factual. I will keep Your words in mind for sure even if I feel I got too powerless to act. That being said, I know this kind of capitulative attitude is, in fact, a kind of laziness.

Next up, & I don't want to sound like a dick... but if you're not working, you might be amazed at the self-esteem the RIGHT job might give you. Now if you've been out of work a while your options might be limited, but if so, might be limited in a good way. Say you had opportunity to be security guard? To re-learn self-discipline, to set the alarm for 6AM, the pride in getting that first pay packet... the pride in your dear mothers eyes... now of course you don't want to be packng plastic for 12 hours a day with some cunt overseeing you. Fuck that.

Please never think Govt schemes are a solution either. In my 20's I was troubled. I had degree, was handsome, at 25 should've been at peak of my life, go-getting etc like most. But I volunteered to do voluntary work as a carer for old, sick, infirmed, handicapped. At pinnacle of my life. Do you think I was appreciated? I was laughed at... "there's something wrong with this guy"... especially by those I was working with. They hated fact that I chose the path they were forced on. It says much for my essential self-esteem that I could make such a sacrificial act when other guys my age were all about mortgage, self-interest, money, drink, getting laid... years later I can stand proud at my courage to follow principle, but at time the reception I got just dragged me down into despair. I thought I was going crazy, thought I wasn't good enough... for anything.

Only when I emigrated to London at 27 & started over again, labouring, did my self-esteem return & new ideas & possibilities. And it built from there. I've never looked back. You're too old to emigrate & start again if you're md-30's IMO. But do try for a real tough fucker of a job if your health allows it. You'll feel blue collar self-respect, which is beautiful (even though you might have the sensibility, which I thnk you do have, of a vey sensitive soul). Its beautiful because you'll just know, "I can fucking cut it".

Take care again.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

I'm translator. I translate mainly children books. From French and from English into Polish.

I've a bunch of long-time clients who respect me and who are always satisfied with my work. If only they knew I spend the majority of my time on wanking and that my translation could have been better.

Every time I see my name printed on a book, I feel ashamed. I hate my name as well as I hate my face in the mirror and my micropenis.

The best moments in my life were those spent with escort girls. I have always been too fat to have a normal intercourse. I tried three times and it worked but still it was a shame. Once the girl was very symphatetic and she made the work, two other times I was drunk but the girl was also amazing. She was Czech and as I speak a bit Czech, we could have a nice conversation.

I paid for the best moments in my life. I'm sorry for my family and for my friends. I respect them for everything they brought to my life. But the best moments in my life were those that I bought.

The best moments in my life were also those that I spend being drunk. I'm a coward so that I can;t buy drugs. I dont know who should I adress. I've some friends who know, but I dont want ask them. I helped them to leave the addiction. I cant show them I'm weak. They rely on me.

I dont want to be respected. I dont deserve it. And I dont believe in respect or in dignity. These are just words and just ideas. It doesnt count. I need money to help my friends. I need money to take care of my cats. And I cant surrender bcz I need to take care about my mother.

But I dont want to live. It;s annoying.

Escort girls are the best people on the planet. I will give them all my money. I havent been to any escort girl for about 6 months. It;s time to restart. I hope one day I get AIDS or other shit. When You are ill, You can die in peace. Nobody will tell You that You are a coward as if You suicided yourself.

Sorry for my English, it's not good when I write. But I do understand nearly everything.

Thank You for Your input. Dont take me wrong. But I dont want to be respected. I dont need nor governement nor blue collar respect. What I need is to be useful and to save escort girls.

When it comes to French, please, excuse me, but I cant give You miracle solutions. Ive a couple of friends from my faculty who became French teachers. They use modern methods. A lot of conversations, playfull mood etc. Perhaps it works. But it would work for me.

I started bcz I wanted to understand Alizée's songs and bcz I was fascinated by the clip of her song "Moi... Lolita", where she asks a guy who is in love with her to "borrow" her 200 francs. Back at that time I was already horny as fuck but I knew I was just a fat loser whose only destiny was to pay for being accepted. This clip was a revelation.

But let's speak French learning. No miracle solutions. I'm sorry. I was studying French in a classic manner. A lot of memory work and a lot of annoying exercices. Annoying but useful and effective. When my classmates were fucking their GFs, I was studying French grammar.

What You need to do is just to read French websistes, newspapers and books. Yes, they used to use litterary tenses but today it's uncommon. Balzac or Zola used them, Houellebecq anymore.

Listen to French news and listen to French music.

Later I will advice You some books. Old school ones.

Not that I dont believe in new methods. Perhaps it works. But not for me.

I'm a XIX century man. I wrote my mémoire de maîtrise about Prosper Mérimée. I wear tracksuits bcz I'm too fat to wear anything else. But I dont belong to todays world. I dont belong nowhere. I just want to be useful, to give my money to females and to lick their anuses.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

But it would work for me.

*wouldn't

[ZiziMinuscule2]

Cours de langue et de civilisation françaises by Gaston Mauger.

I'm not going to tell You that You dont need anything else. But, believe me, thats some very good stuff.

What Lexie Candy is for porn, this series of book is for learning French. Of course it's outdated as fuck. But it's GOOD.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

Voilà.

[ZiziMinuscule2]

You can also use these

[ZiziMinuscule2]

But what really counts is this (featuring Lexie Candy):

[netzerkaiser]

Cours de langue et de civilisation françaises by Gaston Mauger.

I'm not going to tell You that You dont need anything else. But, believe me, thats some very good stuff.

What Lexie Candy is for porn, this series of book is for learning French. Of course it's outdated as fuck. But it's GOOD.

Thanks Zizi.

I'm into languages too. You might like this thread:

viewtopic.php?f=96&t=30217&p=426459&hilit=routledge#p426459

The Schenker book & audio is a Polish Tour de Force for English speakers.

We've so much in common!

[hardanalfan]

BTW, I've never had a girlfriend and I don't want anymore. I just wank about 10 times a day and I pass hours and hours watching porn. It starts to impact my work and "relationships" (I mean family and friends, no serious "relationship").

I've given up psychiatric medication as it didn't work for me. The doctors made serious efforts to help me, but simply didn't work. I don't care anymore. Just want to sleep and wank. Someone must take care of my cats and my mother, but sometimes I think it would be better to diseappear.

After all, it's a true crime to want to have a relationship and to share your life with a woman with whom you don't need to feel ashamed of your body and mind, right ? A fucking crime. A sin.

That's not health at all. Why you wank so much bro?

[YumYum74]

He requested his account be deleted earlier this week, so unless he makes a new account I’m afraid he’s not gonna answer you.

[ZiziMinuscule3]

That's not health at all. Why you wank so much bro?

Along with junk food wanking to porn it's the only source of tangible and immediate pleasure. No other "hobbies". Oh, I also like to pet my cats. For the rest, it's depressing or, at best, annoying.

[ZiziMinuscule3]

That's not health at all. Why you wank so much bro?

You don't know how well you've spoken. When I go to an escort girl (about once every 6 months), I'm not only to fat to perform a regular penetration, but, what's even worse, I barely feel anything when she blowjobs me.

It looks like because of wanking with death grip I've almost completly lost any sensitivity in my microscopic organ.

Perhaps I should just stop wanking. But I can't. It's like an addiction. My psychoterapist advised me to follow an addiction cure, but I can't. There is no life without wanking. Without wanking hard.

I don't believe I could make a step back. And even if I could, I don't believe anymore it would make sense to take care of myself, to lose weight and to stop to wank.

I will just lose time that I can spend on wanking.

[poldijk]

Funny, I actually would but that's a hard sell for many girls, and hard to do as well. I once tried to piss inside a girl and I end up embarrassing myself for shitting the bed instead. Luckily I was able to act quickly in removing the sheets, and taking a shower. Plus it helped that she acted like nothing happened, but it was low moment for sure.

WOW Starrio, you impress me

very funny to read, but I presume, very hard to live

even Analvids does not offer this kind of niche, you are an inventor

conclusion : don't play with piss, you can end up with a shitty time!