Falling in porn-"love" with LP girls

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Thank you for taking the time to reply...I think you must be younger than me and someone in their 30s to early 40s @dap-addict

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Thank you for taking the time to reply...I think you must be younger than me and someone in their 30s to early 40s @dap-addict

30s would be nice, indeed!
Anyway, I think it's never too late to fall in porn-'love' with a porn girl!

I'm still feeling very close with Emily Pink, but I am lately tempted more and more to dump her. I'd do it because she sort of bores me really, she's too stream-lined in a way, she doenst show as much personality and edge in her porn set characters as well as in her social media as I'd like. I know I became very demanding with my porn-'loves' lately, but it is just as it is.

Anyway, lately I am also very often in a nostalgic mood. And a few das back this pic posted by Julia Red in one of her Russian social media channels woke up long lost butterflies in my stomach!
I dont say I've fallen for her - 4 1/2 years after dumping her for Kira Black - but my reaction to just 1 foto showed me something is changing within me and Emily Pink probably cant hold me much longer.

Julia Red driving from Moscow in direction Bryansk, Summer 2023.

Julia Red isnt ideal and her late LP scenes lack a bit of her older porn performances, but she's a very sincere and emotional person. She doenst hide her feelings and may tell me off in discussions we sometimes have. Difference to Emily Pink is, Julia Red is real, she's not just a nice image, she's a person and if hurt she shows, if flattered she shows it as well. Emily Pink looks ideal and always flattered and always happy etc. It's turning into fake, and fake doenst attract me.

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I think there is already a word to describe your feelings and it is lust. Love only happens with someone you actually know.

I come back to this post over 7y ago and ponder about my official current porn-'love' for Emily Pink again. What means to know sb really? And do I know a girl I've been together with let's say for 1y in RL? Or has it to be 5y? Or 10+years? - You see it's all a matter or definition.

But for sure as already mentioned above my porn-'love' of after about 2017/8 depends a lot also on social media of given porn girl, because actually meeting her in RL is way too much demanded. It's also why I write 'love' and not love. The feeling would be graded thus as lust > porn-'love' > RL (real life) love.
So what we are talking about here isnt just lust, its porn-'love' or more than that.

Emily Pink on a homeland stay beginning of 2023.

Now, my problem with Emily Pink is I feel lots and lots of lust for her, but to porn-'love' her I need to 'know' her more than I can just by watching her edited porn videos. First and easiest step is watching her official BTS to get hold a bit of her real personality. Next step is her social media. But here they are kept very official, smooth PR and neat.
With Julia Red that is different: Her social media are closer to her real life and they are much more honest. You feel that, I feel that!

So question put simply for me as an Emily Pink porn-'lover' is can Julia Red win me back again after 4 1/2 years and take me from the much younger Colombian cutie? Still not decided actually, but Julia is close!

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lately I am also very often in a nostalgic mood. And a few das back this pic posted by Julia Red in one of her Russian social media channels woke up long lost butterflies in my stomach!
I dont say I've fallen for her - 4 1/2 years after dumping her for Kira Black - but my reaction to just 1 foto showed me something is changing within me and Emily Pink probably cant hold me much longer.

Still not decided, but there's definitely some change in the woods.
Anyway, I meant to write I had then dumped Julia Red for Kira Thorn, nor Black and definitely not Kyra Black, a very long ago porn-'love' of mine.

This Kira, of whom I just learned she has retired from porn.

Kira Thorn in India 2023.

Could I re-fall in porn-'love' for a retired porn girl? - I think yes!

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So, yes, I admit it, I'm in love with Jolee Love.

Scene after scene, Jolee Love draws me into her irresistible orbit. It's not only because she is undeniably beautiful (she truly is!) and stylishly sexy, but also because of her captivating personality and incredible presence. Her performances seem to 'speak', revealing a unique personal identity - one that I adore!

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Thanks, nice!
However would you care to answer these 5 porn-'lover' questions?

Happy to answer your questions.

How are your feelings? Have you sort of fallen in "love" with them?
No, I can't say I'm in love with her. I don't 'really' know her of course, and I've never been a guy to fall for a girl by sight only.

What else does you bind to them?
She's just so damn cute. She has that natural girl next door kind of look, which I prefer 1000% over silicones and/or heavy make up.

Do you try to book a date with them (provided they escort)?
No. Porn is, and in my eyes needs to remain, a fantasy.

Do you collect all their scenes?
I think you know the answer to this question. Yes, I am collecting all her scenes.

How far goes your loyality?
Well, I follow her on [spam] (hopefully she'll get back to it soon), and follow her thread here religiously. Wish she was on other social meda as well, but oh well.
That said, I have a list of other girls I'm not in porn-love with, but guess have a porn-crush on.
That includes one you know very well dap-addict.
Partial list: Rebecca Volpetti, Kira Thorn, Kristy Black, Ginebra Bellucci, May Thai, Nicole Black, Avi Love, Evelina Darling, Charlotte Sartre, Renata Fox, Natasha Teen and Sara Bell.
And some girls that used to be porn-crushes of mine, but seem to have fallen of the radar or have retired: Eveline Dellai, Olivia Devine, Maria Devine, Ria Sunn, Emily Thorne, Kira Roller and Sofi Goldfinger

Are you jealous of their porn partners? Jealous of their bf?
No (well, maybe a little ). Like I said, it's a fantasy imho, and I think it's important to see it as such. So, while I sometimes imagine what it would be like, I'm realistic enough to realize that this is normally speaking not something that is going to happen.

And finally: What makes you quit that mood of haveing fallen in porn-"love"?
Plastic surgery. I hate it when girls have their boobs blown up to bowling ball like dimensions. As you can tell by my list, I mostly like petite girls with small to medium boobs that compliment their body type. Nothing is a turn off more than a small girl with boobs that are larger than a basket ball.
Same goes for the face and lips by the way. Best (or worse) example of a girl that ruined her appearance in my eyes, is Christina Bella. A cute, all natural girl that turned into some monster held together by silicones.

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This Kira, of whom I just learned she has retired from porn.

Kira Thorn 1-23.jpg

Could I re-fall in porn-'love' for a retired porn girl? - I think yes!

I was terribly late actually I just now learned since Kira Thorn said already on March 27th in one of her live streams that she definitely will not return to porn. Anyway, I see I kept my hope alive for another 1/2 year!

Now about re-falling in porn-'love' with her despite she's definitely retired: Its actually a pretty strange thing, but than her porn scenes are so sensual and so nice and she also just said she loved doing porn when she did it. It sure would be easier if I'd not fellow her on social media all her way through those 4 years in Goa already. I do still adore her, but I'm not sure is it her as the women spiritually grown with her porn past or only her porn past.

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I think there is already a word to describe your feelings and it is lust. Love only happens with someone you actually know.

I come back to this post over 7y ago and ponder about my official current porn-'love' for Emily Pink again. What means to know sb really? And do I know a girl I've been together with let's say for 1y in RL? Or has it to be 5y? Or 10+years? - You see it's all a matter or definition.

This once very active thread needs more care!
Because without gardening nothing grows, also no new porn-'love' confiding, no real emotions.

For me this year has been a very difficult porn year so far. My heart got pretty cold for my porn-'love' Emily Pink sadly, at the same time I had much closer contact than before to a few porn girls who really grabbed my heart but it all turned out to be a very difficult experience.
I'll take a step back now and retreat more into fantasy, less social media and direct contacts, but definitely just more porn works of them again. Currently Kira Thorn, Natalia Rios, Bianca Dantas and Anna de Ville come very close to de-thrown the already de facto de-throwned. I feel one of them may grab me soon!

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cf.
That's how I feel today:

Anna in Prague Dec'23.

This said we both had a terrible quarrel in Spring 2021 when she reached her DAP World Record. She was really arrogant then. And bitchy, too. So lets fantasy stay fantasy than only?

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It's really so difficult to make that sharp fantasy only cut with porn-'loves' because I feel in age of social media it's natural to seek communication with girls you adore. But once you start that it's difficult to not get involved also emotionally like with civilian girls, at least a bit.

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Now, my problem with Emily Pink is I feel lots and lots of lust for her, but to porn-'love' her I need to 'know' her more than I can just by watching her edited porn videos. First and easiest step is watching her official BTS to get hold a bit of her real personality. Next step is her social media. But here they are kept very official, smooth PR and neat.

This said with todays release my official porn-'love' Emily Pink will again win my TKT reload ranking in 2023: viewtopic.php?f=96&t=35377&start=40#p1124792

My porn-'love' has to become more just lust-based again, the more as it's a fantasy ofc and no RL daily routine partner relationship!

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Anyway, I meant to write I had 4 1/2 years ago dumped Julia Red for Kira Thorn (...)
Could I re-fall in porn-'love' for a retired porn girl? - I think yes!

There has been hard times and a crisis of the whole porn-'love' concept on my side past few months. But who I keep returning to and feel still butterflies in my stomach is Kira Thorn for sure!

A. has retired as Kira Thorn and is turning into a grown up women more and more, but still hyper attractive with her outside and more and more also her inner beauty. (Goa, Feb'24)

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...currently Emily Pink has a strong hook in my porn-"loves" history of just 6-7 AVLP girls in 8 (!) years.
There's maybe one contender currently, but she's on a completely other level and I dont think she could de-throne Emily soon. It's nice to feel those butterflies again just spotting her on IG!

This post is just over 1 year old and it shows me how tormented I was with my porn-'love' all 2023! My own concept - see OP post page 1 - is in crisis meanwhile, but like Homer with those syrens I keep going back to Emily again and again, I also keep torn between Emily Pink and Kira Thorn for over 1 year now.
Kira is retired, so no competition basically one would think, Emily can still release new porn videos and a few days ago I went for this very soft POV scene even because I felt such a strong whirls of butterflies for her again in my stomach, its crazy!

This soft scene: https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/460227

Is somebody of fellow posters currently experiencing the same?
Or has in the past with a LP girl?