Falling in porn-"love" with LP girls

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Thank you for taking the time to reply...I think you must be younger than me and someone in their 30s to early 40s @dap-addict

[dap-addict]

Thank you for taking the time to reply...I think you must be younger than me and someone in their 30s to early 40s @dap-addict

30s would be nice, indeed!
Anyway, I think it's never too late to fall in porn-'love' with a porn girl!

I'm still feeling very close with Emily Pink, but I am lately tempted more and more to dump her. I'd do it because she sort of bores me really, she's too stream-lined in a way, she doenst show as much personality and edge in her porn set characters as well as in her social media as I'd like. I know I became very demanding with my porn-'loves' lately, but it is just as it is.

Anyway, lately I am also very often in a nostalgic mood. And a few das back this pic posted by Julia Red in one of her Russian social media channels woke up long lost butterflies in my stomach!
I dont say I've fallen for her - 4 1/2 years after dumping her for Kira Black - but my reaction to just 1 foto showed me something is changing within me and Emily Pink probably cant hold me much longer.

Julia Red driving from Moscow in direction Bryansk, Summer 2023.

Julia Red isnt ideal and her late LP scenes lack a bit of her older porn performances, but she's a very sincere and emotional person. She doenst hide her feelings and may tell me off in discussions we sometimes have. Difference to Emily Pink is, Julia Red is real, she's not just a nice image, she's a person and if hurt she shows, if flattered she shows it as well. Emily Pink looks ideal and always flattered and always happy etc. It's turning into fake, and fake doenst attract me.

[dap-addict]

I think there is already a word to describe your feelings and it is lust. Love only happens with someone you actually know.

I come back to this post over 7y ago and ponder about my official current porn-'love' for Emily Pink again. What means to know sb really? And do I know a girl I've been together with let's say for 1y in RL? Or has it to be 5y? Or 10+years? - You see it's all a matter or definition.

But for sure as already mentioned above my porn-'love' of after about 2017/8 depends a lot also on social media of given porn girl, because actually meeting her in RL is way too much demanded. It's also why I write 'love' and not love. The feeling would be graded thus as lust > porn-'love' > RL (real life) love.
So what we are talking about here isnt just lust, its porn-'love' or more than that.

Emily Pink on a homeland stay beginning of 2023.

Now, my problem with Emily Pink is I feel lots and lots of lust for her, but to porn-'love' her I need to 'know' her more than I can just by watching her edited porn videos. First and easiest step is watching her official BTS to get hold a bit of her real personality. Next step is her social media. But here they are kept very official, smooth PR and neat.
With Julia Red that is different: Her social media are closer to her real life and they are much more honest. You feel that, I feel that!

So question put simply for me as an Emily Pink porn-'lover' is can Julia Red win me back again after 4 1/2 years and take me from the much younger Colombian cutie? Still not decided actually, but Julia is close!

[dap-addict]

lately I am also very often in a nostalgic mood. And a few das back this pic posted by Julia Red in one of her Russian social media channels woke up long lost butterflies in my stomach!
I dont say I've fallen for her - 4 1/2 years after dumping her for Kira Black - but my reaction to just 1 foto showed me something is changing within me and Emily Pink probably cant hold me much longer.

Still not decided, but there's definitely some change in the woods.
Anyway, I meant to write I had then dumped Julia Red for Kira Thorn, nor Black and definitely not Kyra Black, a very long ago porn-'love' of mine.

This Kira, of whom I just learned she has retired from porn.

Kira Thorn in India 2023.

Could I re-fall in porn-'love' for a retired porn girl? - I think yes!

[IamHomosa]

So, yes, I admit it, I'm in love with Jolee Love.

Scene after scene, Jolee Love draws me into her irresistible orbit. It's not only because she is undeniably beautiful (she truly is!) and stylishly sexy, but also because of her captivating personality and incredible presence. Her performances seem to 'speak', revealing a unique personal identity - one that I adore!

[dap-addict]

Thanks, nice!
However would you care to answer these 5 porn-'lover' questions?

Happy to answer your questions.

How are your feelings? Have you sort of fallen in "love" with them?
No, I can't say I'm in love with her. I don't 'really' know her of course, and I've never been a guy to fall for a girl by sight only.

What else does you bind to them?
She's just so damn cute. She has that natural girl next door kind of look, which I prefer 1000% over silicones and/or heavy make up.

Do you try to book a date with them (provided they escort)?
No. Porn is, and in my eyes needs to remain, a fantasy.

Do you collect all their scenes?
I think you know the answer to this question. Yes, I am collecting all her scenes.

How far goes your loyality?
Well, I follow her on [spam] (hopefully she'll get back to it soon), and follow her thread here religiously. Wish she was on other social meda as well, but oh well.
That said, I have a list of other girls I'm not in porn-love with, but guess have a porn-crush on.
That includes one you know very well dap-addict.
Partial list: Rebecca Volpetti, Kira Thorn, Kristy Black, Ginebra Bellucci, May Thai, Nicole Black, Avi Love, Evelina Darling, Charlotte Sartre, Renata Fox, Natasha Teen and Sara Bell.
And some girls that used to be porn-crushes of mine, but seem to have fallen of the radar or have retired: Eveline Dellai, Olivia Devine, Maria Devine, Ria Sunn, Emily Thorne, Kira Roller and Sofi Goldfinger

Are you jealous of their porn partners? Jealous of their bf?
No (well, maybe a little ). Like I said, it's a fantasy imho, and I think it's important to see it as such. So, while I sometimes imagine what it would be like, I'm realistic enough to realize that this is normally speaking not something that is going to happen.

And finally: What makes you quit that mood of haveing fallen in porn-"love"?
Plastic surgery. I hate it when girls have their boobs blown up to bowling ball like dimensions. As you can tell by my list, I mostly like petite girls with small to medium boobs that compliment their body type. Nothing is a turn off more than a small girl with boobs that are larger than a basket ball.
Same goes for the face and lips by the way. Best (or worse) example of a girl that ruined her appearance in my eyes, is Christina Bella. A cute, all natural girl that turned into some monster held together by silicones.

[dap-addict]

This Kira, of whom I just learned she has retired from porn.

Kira Thorn 1-23.jpg

Could I re-fall in porn-'love' for a retired porn girl? - I think yes!

I was terribly late actually I just now learned since Kira Thorn said already on March 27th in one of her live streams that she definitely will not return to porn. Anyway, I see I kept my hope alive for another 1/2 year!

Now about re-falling in porn-'love' with her despite she's definitely retired: Its actually a pretty strange thing, but than her porn scenes are so sensual and so nice and she also just said she loved doing porn when she did it. It sure would be easier if I'd not fellow her on social media all her way through those 4 years in Goa already. I do still adore her, but I'm not sure is it her as the women spiritually grown with her porn past or only her porn past.

[dap-addict]

I think there is already a word to describe your feelings and it is lust. Love only happens with someone you actually know.

I come back to this post over 7y ago and ponder about my official current porn-'love' for Emily Pink again. What means to know sb really? And do I know a girl I've been together with let's say for 1y in RL? Or has it to be 5y? Or 10+years? - You see it's all a matter or definition.

This once very active thread needs more care!
Because without gardening nothing grows, also no new porn-'love' confiding, no real emotions.

For me this year has been a very difficult porn year so far. My heart got pretty cold for my porn-'love' Emily Pink sadly, at the same time I had much closer contact than before to a few porn girls who really grabbed my heart but it all turned out to be a very difficult experience.
I'll take a step back now and retreat more into fantasy, less social media and direct contacts, but definitely just more porn works of them again. Currently Kira Thorn, Natalia Rios, Bianca Dantas and Anna de Ville come very close to de-thrown the already de facto de-throwned. I feel one of them may grab me soon!

[dap-addict]

cf.
That's how I feel today:

Anna in Prague Dec'23.

This said we both had a terrible quarrel in Spring 2021 when she reached her DAP World Record. She was really arrogant then. And bitchy, too. So lets fantasy stay fantasy than only?

[dap-addict]

It's really so difficult to make that sharp fantasy only cut with porn-'loves' because I feel in age of social media it's natural to seek communication with girls you adore. But once you start that it's difficult to not get involved also emotionally like with civilian girls, at least a bit.

[dap-addict]

Now, my problem with Emily Pink is I feel lots and lots of lust for her, but to porn-'love' her I need to 'know' her more than I can just by watching her edited porn videos. First and easiest step is watching her official BTS to get hold a bit of her real personality. Next step is her social media. But here they are kept very official, smooth PR and neat.

This said with todays release my official porn-'love' Emily Pink will again win my TKT reload ranking in 2023: viewtopic.php?f=96&t=35377&start=40#p1124792

My porn-'love' has to become more just lust-based again, the more as it's a fantasy ofc and no RL daily routine partner relationship!

[dap-addict]

Anyway, I meant to write I had 4 1/2 years ago dumped Julia Red for Kira Thorn (...)
Could I re-fall in porn-'love' for a retired porn girl? - I think yes!

There has been hard times and a crisis of the whole porn-'love' concept on my side past few months. But who I keep returning to and feel still butterflies in my stomach is Kira Thorn for sure!

A. has retired as Kira Thorn and is turning into a grown up women more and more, but still hyper attractive with her outside and more and more also her inner beauty. (Goa, Feb'24)

[dap-addict]

...currently Emily Pink has a strong hook in my porn-"loves" history of just 6-7 AVLP girls in 8 (!) years.
There's maybe one contender currently, but she's on a completely other level and I dont think she could de-throne Emily soon. It's nice to feel those butterflies again just spotting her on IG!

This post is just over 1 year old and it shows me how tormented I was with my porn-'love' all 2023! My own concept - see OP post page 1 - is in crisis meanwhile, but like Homer with those syrens I keep going back to Emily again and again, I also keep torn between Emily Pink and Kira Thorn for over 1 year now.
Kira is retired, so no competition basically one would think, Emily can still release new porn videos and a few days ago I went for this very soft POV scene even because I felt such a strong whirls of butterflies for her again in my stomach, its crazy!

This soft scene: https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/460227

Is somebody of fellow posters currently experiencing the same?
Or has in the past with a LP girl?

[sumacs3]

...currently Emily Pink has a strong hook in my porn-"loves" history of just 6-7 AVLP girls in 8 (!) years.
There's maybe one contender currently, but she's on a completely other level and I dont think she could de-throne Emily soon. It's nice to feel those butterflies again just spotting her on IG!

This post is just over 1 year old and it shows me how tormented I was with my porn-'love' all 2023! My own concept - see OP post page 1 - is in crisis meanwhile, but like Homer with those syrens I keep going back to Emily again and again, I also keep torn between Emily Pink and Kira Thorn for over 1 year now.
Kira is retired, so no competition basically one would think, Emily can still release new porn videos and a few days ago I went for this very soft POV scene even because I felt such a strong whirls of butterflies for her again in my stomach, its crazy!
Is somebody of fellow posters currently experiencing the same?
Or has in the past with a LP girl?

Hi dap-addict. This reply is related to your recent post about T*** and her career. I agreed with her to no longer contribute to that forum, owing in particular to the guy you replied to who keeps asking too much about her. She is very "nervous" about him and TBH prefer if you do not engage him further there. But of course you can do what you like. So I am adding information here instead, but it is definitely related to porn "love." (I still order the occasional custom from her, even though she officially does not offer them. I raised the price significantly and she has so much else going on that she does not do them that quickly, although she always does a good job. One of my passions is to somehow re-enlist a retired favorite pornstar and receive exclusive videos. It is a kind of adventure and an effort to do the impossible.)

Yes, for me, some girls simply stay on my mind, and the instant and lasting attraction is almost like a reflex and is a part of who you are. For me, I tend to fall in porn "love" with girls who have very gentle or sweet-looking faces. So think of Benta, Bonya and T***. There was also the great Sophie Strauss. When I see Sophie's face on one of her adult magazine covers, I feel joy. It is uplifting, even soul-stirring. Sophie was once part of a site called BellezzaVideos and was on three of that studio's DVDs. The producer "Omar" said himself that Sophie was the kind of girl whose face would make you fall in love with her right away! Even with just a brief web search, I know all the things necessary to meet her if I so chose to, but I prefer the fantasy. I simply have too many other interests (Nature, research, Westerns, etc). Oh yeah, she's married,too.

I know you mentioned how paying for such a porn girl's stuff is foolishness, but for me, a reasonably happy loner, I love the idea of a virtual harem. I actually do feel fulfilled and incredibly fortunate to have this kind of fantasy life. When I graduated high school I had wished there was a universal yearbook of the whole world's female graduates. About 20 years later, along came the Internet! I never wished to have a GF or to be married, and no one ever pressured me to live the conventional life. I like to carve out my own life, and the idea of custom-tailored videos has been great because the models help me live that way. And, like you with Emily, I still shamelessly and joyfully purchase some of T's OF videos, which in my view are quite reasonably priced. She really does have fun and has real orgasms. One time she came too fast in a custom for me and apologized and made another one! She is in my view a very high quality person in what others call a low quality lifestyle. Myself I love to collect older adult DVDs because of the beauty of the models, and not always for their activities.

[dap-addict]

This post is just over 1 year old and it shows me how tormented I was with my porn-'love' all 2023! My own concept - see OP post page 1 - is in crisis meanwhile, but like Homer with those syrens I keep going back to Emily again and again, I also keep torn between Emily Pink and Kira Thorn for over 1 year now.
Kira is retired, so no competition basically one would think, Emily can still release new porn videos...

With Emily Pink de facto retireing from hardcore anal porn as it seems by I am more and more falling for Helen Star!
Problem is she had no DAP released since May 1st!
I need a steady DAP diet by my porn-'loves' otherwise it doenst work out long with me, but I know from experience if I have very strong feelings I can wait for over 1 year. With Helen Star however I try not to fall for her till her status isnt clear to me. It's no sense to fall in porn-'love' with a retireing porn girl!

[justinwarren41]

I often get a 'Blast from the past" and binge on a girl I haven't seen in awhile. Downloading Nikki Hill Blackbusters GIO1218, 18 year old Nikki in 4K! So I get your comment on Julia Red, she was one of the best at GIO's and underappreciated at her time with all the Eastern Euros GIO recruited

So it comes and goes, and yes Emily has taken a different path, not down with the current trend in Prague of Puke Vids, some veterans are going for it (Mina, Anna de Ville, Ria Sun, Veronica Leal) so I wish her well

[Sergio8317]

My porn Love:
Lady Zee (one of the few who actually drank urine and enjoyed it)
Kate Rich (broke the world bukkake record and fucked in the 9th month of pregnancy just before giving birth)
Alita Angel (just a very beautiful girl)
Nikki Hill

[dap-addict]

Thanks, Sergio!
All of these 4 at the same time?
Or is there a timeline for them, and who you fell in porn-'love' most?
Also: All 4 are retired meanwhile, are you still in porn-'love' with them?
And if you could answer some of my questions in OP (top of page 1 of this thread)...

[Sergio8317]

Thanks, Sergio!
All of these 4 at the same time?
Or is there a timeline for them, and who you fell in porn-'love' most?
Also: All 4 are retired meanwhile, are you still in porn-'love' with them?
And if you could answer some of my questions in OP (top of page 1 of this thread)...

There are many, many more. Outside of LP, I very love Adria Rae and Megan Rain (especially before her temporary departure).
And my first love was the magnificent Anna Zolotarenko aka Priscilla, Anna Lacey.
It's hard to single out just one among so many beautiful porn girls.
Lady Zee drank piss with pleasure and endured hard face fucking. She also had great scenes with vomiting.
Alita Angel was very exciting with her playful look and prepubescent body.
Kate Rich earned my respect with her record of bukkake and fucking right before giving birth.
I forgot to add Baby Kitten. She enjoys hard fucking and pissed during the process.
I can also remember Chloe Heart and Arwen Gold.
Yes, I still watch their scenes.
But if I have to choose one, let it be Lady Zee.

[Sergio8317]

how loyal and affected you are to them? How are your feelings? Have you sort of fallen in "love" with them?

Yes, it's like real love.But to a greater extent it is admiration for their courage, emancipation and depravity.

Do you try to book a date with them (provided they escort)?

Of course, I would do this if there was such an opportunity.

How far goes your loyality? Are you jealous of their porn partners? Jealous of their bf?

I'm not jealous of their porn partners.But I'm a little jealous of their boyfriends.After all, she is with him and not with me.And I can't be with her or marry her.But even if I dated her or married her I wouldn't want her to stop fucking other guys. Because it what I fell in love with her for.

What makes you quit that mood of haveing fallen in porn-"love"?

[PornoManiac]

Nikki Hill
Jennifer Mendez
Julia Red
Daniela Garcia
Kira Viburn
Sofa Weber
Sasha Paige
Gia Derza
these actresses are something special for me, their facial expressions are so exciting
I really hope that one day we will see them in the studio in Prague

[xxxVIPERxxx]

Enjoy your porn, enjoy casual hook-ups with hot girls...sex with sex workers etc...but do not fall in real love.

[Sergio8317]

Enjoy your porn, enjoy casual hook-ups with hot girls...sex with sex workers etc...but do not fall in real love.

Why?

[xxxVIPERxxx]

As for WHY? When you fall in real love in real life, it often costs you a fortune in money, time, energy, efforts...

I want to come back to which LP girls made me fall in love with LPAV porn on here...

There were quite a few TS performers such as Andylynn Payne, Natalie Mars.

There were a lot of great girls who performed really well that made be fall in love with this place too. From memory:

Jolee Love, Syren de Mer, Barbie Sins, Elen Million, Francys Belle, Natasha Teen, Aletta Black, Ria Sunn, Sindy Rose, Nicole Black etc...

It was never the super popular stalwarts like Veronica Leal, Anna de Ville, Brittany Bardot, Kristy Black, Angel Smalls, Belle Claire, Blanche Bradburry etc who got me hooked....

But honestly speaking, it was the quality of the TS porn that made me check out LPAV first, then I just explored some of their stars and liked the performances of the girls that I mentioned.

[dap-addict]

I hope its okay to re-post this heartwarming post of Jerry:

First LP girl I fell in love with.

One of most horny scenes I have ever scene.

https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/30509

[dap-addict]

Now butterflies are gathering by 1000s in my stomach!
Incredible! Khali Noir send me her personalized porn girl 'love'!

OB381: https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/1953272

However, what Oscar failed to tell Khali is that I'll fall in porn-'love' with her only after she daps for me! Yeah, call me selfish, but my porn-'love' is conditional. Last 15 years I never fell in porn-'love' with a non-DAP-able girl! Thats a no go, sorry to say! This said Khali Noir will 99% do it for me, she'll wanna win my heart...

[dap-addict]

Btw, watch Khali Noir's reaction on the idea of porn-'love' as such:
Its not about me here, its about porn fans generally falling in love with porn girls like her. It's not the same as RL love ofc, but I think its deeply human, something really positive, pushing fans to true compassion - instead of heartless, selfish consumers and kinda porn drug users!

[sumacs3]

Btw, watch Khali Noir's reaction on the idea of porn-'love' as such:
Its not about me here, its about porn fans generally falling in love with porn girls like her. It's not the same as RL love ofc, but I think its deeply human, something really positive, pushing fans to true compassion - instead of heartless, selfish consumers and kinda porn drug users!

Nina Hartley once said that most people see porn as disposable.
But we connaisseurs of lovely and genuinely friendly adult models think otherwise.

[dap-addict]

Almost 3 weeks later this weekend comes the time of truth for me: I asked Oscar Batty to dap Khali Noir for me during her first Mambo Perv time already, so that I could really fall in porn-'love' for her, since after 2015 I dont fall in porn-'love' with not-DAP-able girls anymore. Khali sadly retired than. Now she's back but my request was still active ofc, I also reminded Oscar of course - and he took my request to Khali Noir! Thanks Oscar, thanks Khali!

I was traveling a lot and hadn't time to watch Kali's DAPbreakin' scene yet, but I am so happy she opened up her ass for me! Here is the scene I'm finally gonna watch this weekend and test what happens with my heart: https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/2103456 (OB404)


Just generally let me add that I haven't been in porn-'love' for quite some time now due to feeling betrayed and badly hurt when I was ready to abolish by DAP-request for porn-'love' and really thinking only of the girls personal wellbeing and happiness.
This said ofc I had my short term re-lapses to Kira Thorn, Julia Red, Vivienne LaRoche and Emily Pink, but I wasnt really in porn-'love' anymore for too long a time!

[dap-addict]

add:
Just generally one more thing, while I still dint come around watching that Khali Noir DAPbreakin' the Brasilieira uber-cutie girl did for me: Porn-'love' is a clear one-way thing and so loved porn girls may smile nicely back as Khali Noir did when Oscar talked with her about my delicately growing porn-'love' for her. Thats all we can expect, lest we'd meet these porn girls in private and rather without money involved.
From my recent no porn-'love' times I actually talked with Kira Thorn quite a lot and with Julia Red a little. And I had met Vivienne LaRoche for a payed private meeting 20y or so ago. With VLR that led to nothing personal whatsoever and no contact at all soon. I'd maybe book a private meeting with Julia Red in Rome when I'd happen to be there anyway, just out of curiosity how she fucks 1 : 1, but I'd so also burry my porn-'love' dream forever, I think., Because porn-'love' is way ideal, pure, one-way only, no daily life, even incl. not coming too tired to an escort date, both ways her or me.
Pure porn-'love' was in these terms only with Emily Pink, who never answered any of my questions, who does those IGy Q/A all the time, who is the perfect glamour queen and therefore I lost my interest pretty fast. But yes, my porn-'love' for her was pure, ideal!
Finally what do those porn-'loved' girls think of us porn-'lovers'? - I wouldn't say most of them see a bag of money in us. To my experience they rather want to have a normal human connection, like I had with Kira Thorn a lot about living in India and Hindu vs. Russian culture for instance. But life thought them sadly they have to beware of too much loving fans, so it really needs a lot of delicacy and time to talk to them. And no, they usually dont want to talk with us porn-'lovers' about their LP scenes - lest DAP!

[dap-addict]

...and now getting ready to fall in porn-'love' again finally!

Khali enjoying a club night after her 1st DAP shot, thinking of
all her fans falling in porn-'love' with her. (São Paulo, Oct'24)

Am I really ready for it?
Is she? - Since its a one-way-street it doesnt matter anyway!

[dap-addict]

For a lack of time on Saturday I only fast forward to some crucial DAP footage of OB404 so far, but today I go for these 2 Mambo Perv. films and test Khalis effect on my desperately longing porn-'lover' heart:

OB154 from her 1st porn round:
https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/372094

and than Khali Noirs DAPbreakin' in full length:
OB404: https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/2103456


Now does the finally DAP-ed Khali allow me to fall for her?

[dap-addict]

Still didnt happen!

[dap-addict]

Still didnt happen!

I'm currently trying Khalis 2nd DAP...

Last DAP position and Khali looks lost, she's a bit tired already:
Now does she do it just for me maybe?

OB417: https://pornbox.com/application/watch-page/2235840

I sorta realize I should have invested a few hundred $$$ to get Khali Noir do those DAPs for me probabely to help her win me over! To create a special connection to her, to get involved more, to make her do it just for me!
It's so difficult somehow to fall in porn-'love' again!

Now she explains how afraid she was of that very first time and how it hurt a bit, but its not connected to me really even Oscar told her already I was in porn-'love' with her. But so much happened between Khalis first porn scenes 2 years ago, me fighting to not fall in porn-'love' with her before she doenst dap for me, but still way falling for her already - and her comeback now! I was loyal to one and only DAP-able Latina porn-'love' after Khali didnt give me that DAP, than fell off Emily Pink basically pretty fast and was venturing more into more RL porngirl feelings, got burned and somehow it affects now also my most likely next true and real OP porn-'love'.

[Malena_Rhyder]

I am trans so my contribution here will be very different. I have formed some connections with some stars...but I don't know if it can called as love. Lina Arian, Blanche Bradburry, Jane Wilde and more have been extremely important to me. But my biggest LP crush and a woman I would be more than happy to marry would be Irina a.k.a Ariadna!