Dear fellow LP-forum users,
First of all, I’m sorry for my English that is rather stiff. It’s not my mother tongue and I use it sparsely in my job.
I’ve been following this thread for a while, I’ve even considered adding my contribution. But, for a reason or another, I haven’t done it yet. Now, after being invited by dap-addict himself to do so (after I announced being in love in new Latvian newcomer Gabriella in her thread), I’m taking action.
Before going to the essence of my message, I think I shall explain that my infatuation for Gabriella is no more as intense as it was just a couple days ago. I like her a lot. I hope she will appear in more scenes. She has certainly joined the circle of my favourite porn models. Moreover, she will remain for forever the first girl whose scene was for me an incentive for an instabuy. Indeed, I’ve never before bought any scene featuring a girl I’ve never seen before, just a couple of seconds after viewing the trailer.
Now, I will take care to answer several questions dap-addict formulated in his first post:
dap-addict wrote: how loyal and affected you are to them? How are your feelings? Have you sort of fallen in "love" with them?
I feel very loyal and attached to my pornloves. My feelings for my very favourite porn models don’t differ from my feelings I would have for a girlfriend. Whether a porn model or a girlfriend, she is above all a woman. And I’m incapable of calibrating my feelings for a woman. In fact, I’m polyamorous.
dap-addict wrote: What else does you bind to them?
I don’t know personally any of my favourite porn models and none of them has a social media account. Therefore, all can bind me to them is their physical aspect. But I want to belive I would also appreciate who they are. Provided that I have a slave-oriented mind, I think I would be able to fall into line.
dap-addict wrote: Do you try to book a date with them (provided they escort)? Do you collect all their scenes?
No, I have never tried to book a date with my porn love and I don’t think I would do it. I don’t like myself, I know well my downsides and I don’t think they would be happy to spend some time with a fellow like me.
dap-addict wrote: How far goes your loyality? Are you jealous of their porn partners? Jealous of their bf?
My loyality goes very far because I never quit my pornlove mood. That’s why I’m polyamorous I feel bad I need to choose one girl. But these are the rules.
No, I’m not jealous of their porn partners nor their bfs. I’m just a fan.
dap-addict wrote: And finally: What makes you quit that mood of haveing fallen in porn-"love"?
There’s nothing that can make me quit the mood of porn love. If I have fallen in porn love with a porn model, I will remain attached to her forever. That’s why I’m polyamorous.
That said, whom I will talk about ? You probably guess, as my avatar, my signature and my contributions to this forum make my love for Roxy Black apparent.
Indeed, after the retirement of my favourite classic models several years ago I was experiencing a kind of dry period. I was unable to enjoy porn as I used to do it. I was waiting for new releases of my favs, knowing well they had left the porn permanently ; that what I was waiting for what would never come.
That said, I fell I should explain that I’m really attached to my favourite models and that I watch porn mainly because of them and not because of specific sexual behaviours, techniques, genres or other possible factors.
And then, one day, I discovered Roxy Black, the girl who gave me back the taste of porn and who influenced my life in different ways. I don’t remind where, but probably on EBI. In that moment, I understood, that I was experiencing a turning point. It was a matter of seconds. Roxy gave me back the taste of porn and it's thanks to her I’m enjoying it as I used to enjoy it previously, when my classic favourites had been still active. That’s not all. Roxy is not only one of the hottests pornstars, but as well one of the prietties women I have ever seen.
I’m fat, ugly and boring. Porn is on of the rare, if not the only, safe harbours in my everyday life. And Roxy saved the porn for me. In a certain way, she saved me. Roxy Black changed my mind. Each day, I’m waiting another release featuring Roxy. I’ve even begun again to learn Czech (that I had started to learn years ago, after being incredibly as impressed as a teenager by a set of Lenka Gaborova). When I’ve time, I’m trying to follow Czech news, to listen some Dvorak and Smetana. To feel the Czechitude. I really wish Roxy is safe, healthy and happy in her everyday life. If I were religious, I would pray for her happiness.
Is it all I’ve to say ? (Un)fortunately, no. I told You the story of my love for Roxy Black. But in my mind, I’m polyamourous. But please, be assured, I will not bother You with another pornlove stories, as we are asked to speak only about one girl. I only want to name two girls I just need to mention when asked to speak about (porn)love :
Sugar Baby, an Hungarian next-door stunner who has retired a couple years ago and who never appeared on LP) ;
Jess/Jess B, a Russian chubby next-door redhead who never seemed to like pornwork and who left the biz rather fast, but who appeared on three scenes available here, on LP.
Asked to name only one pornlove, I don’t have doubts – it’s Roxy Black. But this choice is a painful one. On one side, I’m happy I can higlight such a wonderful girl; on the other, I’m in pain I have to leave Sugar Baby and Jess (and a couple of other girls) on the second plan. But it's a polyamorous' destiny The winner takes it all, they said.
Please, don’t think I consider myself an exception. I’m sure there are people who face similiar quandaries that I do.
Once more, sorry for my English.